#i’m lowkey sad
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guys i can’t stop pushing people away i think im meant to be alone
#mentally unstable#i’m lowkey sad#slightly depressed#i’m tired#i love pushing people away#i’m sleepy#and sad#honk shoo mimimimi#tw depressing stuff#i wanna kms#i want to be okay#tw depressing thoughts#depression relapse
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family tea party.
(in my mind, Radagon is the pure Order with no kindness half, and he always yearns to converge with Marika + be on equal footing with her, so in my drawing he’ll always be kinda nuts)
#elden ring#radagon of the golden order#queen marika the eternal#believe it or not this is ship art#my conspiracy theory is that he took advantage of Messmer being sealed and Godwyn death to slowly ursurp Marika#since those two command the two largest armies that were loyal to her just after Godfrey’s#in an misguided attempt to ease her burden. like oh if I’m in charge you won’t be sad again :) kinda way#also lowkey alienating Miq and Mal from their mother#so he’ll be the only one Marika can lean on. but joke is on him she dragged him down with her too alright#I can’t write another essay on this so pls just take the art#they r so funny in my head now#messmer the impaler#albi’s art
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Mv33 X Stay Down
Posting this on tumblr first 😳 lmk ur thoughts 😔
Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo
#posting this for my tumblr pookies first 😋#I’m…. unsure ab this one#idk. idk!!!!#but I loved drawing sad max godbless#i’m open to suggestions#bc it’s lowkey so meh to me#f1#formula 1#f1blr#f1 fanart#formula one#f1 art#annie’s art#formula one fanart#formula 1 fanart#formulanni#mv33 X stay down#mv33#mv1#max verstappen#max verstappen edit#mv33 edit#f1 web weaving#web weave of sorts#red bull racing#red bull f1
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taylor switching invisible string to the 1 in the last few shows is suddenly making a lot of sense…
#taylor swift#joe alwyn#wow i’m kind of sad about this#but wish them both the best#invisible string#folklore#eras tour#the 1#william bowery#jaylor#lowkey devastated
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hong kong miku,,,
#hopping on the trend jumpscare i’m from hong kong surprise#i haven’t seen that many hk mikus around#lowkey chat i think i kinda ate with this one#however i will say i am coloring in the dark so if any colors look off that’s why#and also i haven’t opened this program in literal months i jumped straight into this no warmup no nothing#miku is what pulls me out of art block apparently i was locked in for 5 hours STRAIGHT#someone needs to teach me how to paint properly holy#not sure how i feel about the bottom left one but that was a quick one anyways#i am from hk originally but i haven’t been back in years so i have no idea about the culture other than food and mirror#OKAY let me explain the context#street food is a big thing in hk and quick and easy things like fish balls egg waffles and like siu mai and wonton noodles are popular#back then people really would just squat down on the side of the road or right in front of the shop to eat it and go#but i don’t think anyone does that anymore city life and all that#ohh i should have done instant noodles breakfasts god i loved those#if anyones from hk if you go to the causeway bay mtr station exit that leads up to the big road near sogo. do they still sell siu mai there#that shit was BANGER i remember asking for them all the time#a good majority of parents in hk would get their daughters ears pierced as a baby something about them not feeling as much pain idk#that’s just what i was told#i used the neon for her friendly standard greeting cause i wanted to incorporate the neon signs somehow without actually drawing a whole bg#lots of neon signs in hk. i heard they had to take them down cause of light pollution which is sad but understandable#everyone got their shoes from dr kong. at least when i was younger they did#boy band is self explanatory. i heard they’re really popular my mom listens to them#oh i had her messing with her shoes cause hk people move FAST. you stop for one second and you get shoved#so like a fun little allusion#gave her black roots just for fun. she is violating every school uniform code possible#this is all based off of my memory by the way so like. anyone who knows this better than i do hit me up#hatsune miku#miku from my culture#jellos scribbles#i haven’t tag yapped in so long welcome back my love i missed you
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Getting rejected from an audition sucks guys I’m actually really sad rn ☹️☹️👎
#tell me why I’m actually so upset 😭😭#like crying#I CANNOT handle rejection#I NEVER GET REJECTED ?? :(#like i was so excited to be the bass guitarist for this new jazz band at uni and I auditioned and it went well ??#only to get an email back saying that I didn’t get in bc I can’t sight read 😭😭#THEY SAID IT WASNT A PROBLEM IN THE AUDITION ??#also I can still read music ?!!#I studied music tf#also it’s not like I’m bad bassist lowkey not to flex but I’m so good and can play to grade 8 and my old jazz band was WAY better#and you couldn’t even get auditioned for that one#you had to be invited#not to flex but I was invited#and also sight reading is literally not even an issue bc if you just give me the sheet music before#I can play#and in the audition they literally said it’s not an issue#so why are they bs ing me now#I KNEW THAT PRESIDENT HAD IT OUT FOR ME FROM THE START#HE LITERALLY HATES ME#also it’s not even like there was a better bassist#I’m really sad rn I was looking forward to it so bad#I have no will to live#bro I’m actually so sad rn 😭😭☹️☹️#I miss my old jazz band so much omg I’m so sad#nia rants !
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Unnecessarily lengthy ramble abt losing interest and moving on with a new acc + last few bot/fic ideas I might post (feel free to ignore idkidk)
I���ve been having a hectic week regarding academic stuff so I have the worst brain fog rn, and I have a feeling I should unwind a couple more days before writing this but I honestly don’t care atp 😭😭
Basically, as you can see with the title, I’m losing interest in AHS, evan peters, his characters - all that. Besides Colin Zabel (he’s still my husband fr), creating content for everything else feels like a real chore now, whilst back then it was truly enjoyable and exciting.
Don’t get me wrong, I love writing and making bots, like this stuff is basically for life lol. But nowadays, it feels like I’m simply utilizing the evans as tools to write out the tropes I enjoy, rather than actually experiencing a desire to write FOR the characters like I used to ((which still can be gratifying in its own respective way… until a certain motivating factor begins to lack, if that makes sense??
It really sucks cuz I chalked it up to me being burned out, when in reality my attraction was clearly just plummeting as we speak 😔. What’s worse is that I’m really comfortable in this fandom - like I have super cool moots here, there’s no drama, there’s a bunch of evan characters for everybody 😂, and I gained over 500 followers, which is still crazy to me! I tried to “prolong” my interest for the sake of all this progress, but I think the inevitable has arrived and I can no longer keep up, my resolve is crumbling y’all 😭😭😭
I was hoping to wait until the Tron movie comes out in 2025, cuz maybe seeing Evan in there would reignite some of ✨la passion✨ within me, however I don’t feel like hanging around anymore, since I no longer relate to the fandom. I feel so out of place now, like a fRaUD 😩 ((I’ll still most likely watch it, but until then we’ll see
And to clarify, I will most likely NOT post and interact as frequently as I used to anymore. I’m not deleting this account, though I am going to make a new account to post The Boys content, as I want a fresh clean slate to start new.
Before I do go, I might drop a bot or two, maybe even a fic in the near future since they’re halfway done and I did NOT use all that effort for nothing 😭💀:
- corrupt cop!Colin Zabel ((most likely will make this next…. For personal reasons 😳
- a standard pre-cult Kai bot ((not brown hair pre-cult Kai, the recently dyed blue hair one iykwim. sorry
- as for fics, I’ll most likely post a very short smut when Kyle goes down on reader, cuz why not 😏
- might finish the older!grumpy neighbor!kit I talked about before since I’m halfway done
- not sure about this but I have a really random JPM fic where reader (accidentally but also not so accidentally) killed their spouse and they have no one to call but him for help ((heavily based off the tv show Fargo, the first season
No promises tho! I might occasionally come back to post if some random ideas for the evans come up, and ofc for Colin cuz he’s still the loml, no debate <3
#this lowkey feels like a breakup and I’m sad 🥲#*starts playing the blackest day off in the distance*#american horror story#ahs#ahs fandom#evan peters
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It’s 5am and I couldn’t sleep so now I’m eating a peach and thinking about how much I want a damn anime tattoo
#I found a new tattoo artist a few hours away who is incredible#and now I’m obsessed with wanting a tattoo again#but alas they are so fucking expensive and i have to be responsible so no tattoos anytime soon#🥲#also this peach is lowkey not the best and now I’m extra sad#but it’s still good bc peach
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It’s October 2023. c!Ranboo and c!Tubbo are almost 20. They’ve been married for 3 years. Michael isn’t a toddler anymore and grew up to be a lively kid, twice the size he was before and incredibly smart. It’s cool weather today in Snowchester, and the snow covered cabins are bright with Halloween decorations. The family are in their mansion, no trace of fear or sadness in them. c!Tubbo, c!Tommy, c!Wilbur, and c!Jack are making Jack-o-Lanterns at the dining table, cracking jokes and making each other howl with laughter. c!Ranboo fondly rolls their eyes at them from where they’re sitting by the fireplace with c!Techno and Michael, making Michael giggle while the three of them sorting through Halloween decorations to hang up inside. c!Phil and c!Niki are mixing cookie batter on the kitchen island, smiling as they converse over the lively Halloween music. They all soon join together to eat dinner and design their Halloween cookies. c!Fundy knocks on the door, a gift in hand and a sly smile on his face, c!Quackity following him in with a cheer. c!Eret joins, cozy fall sweaters in her arms to hand to everyone. c!Puffy and Foolish arrive shortly after, bringing a customized costume for Michael and the othere. Soon the well-loved home fills with friends. There’s no arguments. No battles. No betrayals. Just laughter, warmth, and joy. Everywhere else, the land is healing. Bloodshed and war are no more in the Greater SMP or anywhere for them. Houses stand peacefully, as they once were. People smile at each other and chat happily along the Prime Path, all trace of malice and resentment gone. Everything is peaceful again. The future was bright. No pain or suffering from the past, only healing and moving forward.
#I’m delulu y’all#I SO badly want a world where the dsmp ended naturally and where everyone got their good ending#so I’m making it MYSELF#btw if someone isn’t they’re they still stop by#people like to visit c!beeduo’s mansion just to gawk at it#c!tubbo nags them jokingly but he act does lowkey feel happy abt it#I ACCIDENTALLY TYPED IN “he act dies” HELPPP 😭#man I’m so sad. It’s okay guys. They’re happy#c!beeduo#michael_beloved#c!tubbo#c!ranboo#c!tommy#c!benchtrio#c!philza#c!nihachu#c!techno#c!fundy#c!quackity#c!eret#c!puffy#c!foolish#c!wilbur#c!jack#almost forgot the last two LMAO#aw. okay crying time#dsmp
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you’re losing me
eddie munson x reader
warnings- angst, idk if the ending is comfort, mild cussing
based on you’re losing me by taylor swift
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“eddie.” i whisper. “hm?” he hums, still tuning with his guitar. “are you gonna come to bed?” i ask. “later.” he mumbles. “oh.” i sigh and leave, getting into bed alone.
i let my head hit the pillow before tears slip down. i don’t even attempt to wipe them away. eventually i fall asleep, one small wipe to my cheeks before i drift off.
i wake up in an empty bed and his side cold. i sigh and pad into the kitchen. i see his handwriting sprawled across a note.
emergency band meeting
-eddie
i sigh and make myself coffee. not even a ‘love eddie’ just an ‘-eddie’.
i’m pouring the creamer into my cup when the door opens and he appears. “morning.” i softly smile. “hey.” he sends a small smile back.
i watch him grab himself a cup of coffee and go and sit down on the couch, turning on the tv. i glare at him as i sip on my coffee.
he didn’t even say morning to me, or kiss me, or hardly acknowledge me.
i sit down beside him and try to cuddle into his side. it just seems that he’s cold, he’s not responding. “ed’s.” i say softly. “yeah?” he asks. “i love you.” i smile. “love you.” he responds, turning back to the tv.
“so, what was the emergency?” i ask. “gareth got a good idea, wanted to put it on paper.” he shrugs. “oh.” i turn back to the tv.
“did you sleep at all?” i ask. “for like 30 minutes.” he shrugs. “oh.” i pick at my sweater. i continue to stay there and let my coffee get cold.
eventually i can’t take it and look up at him. “eddie.” i sigh, pushing myself off of him. “what?” he asks. “do you love me?” i feel tears threaten to spill. “what? of course i do.” he swears.
“well fucking act like it.” i beg. “i have been.” he scoffs. “no you haven’t.” i point out, getting up. “what do you mean?” he responds. “you’re never here!” i yell.
“i’m here right now, and i was here all day yesterday.” he points out, now standing also. “you weren’t though! you might’ve been in the same apartment, but you’re not with me. you barely talked to me, only until i talked to you. you didn’t eat with me. you didn’t even lay down in bed with me. for fucks sake.” i rant.
“if you don’t want to be with me, just tell me. i can’t deal with this.” i beg him. “i do want to be with you.” he argues. “then act like it!” i yell.
he sighs, rubbing his hands over his face, sitting back down. there’s a moment of silence and i let the tears i’ve been holding back, fall.
“baby.” he sighs, getting up. i try to wipe them away but they keep falling. “hey.” he says softly. he moves my hands away and wipes away the tears.
“i’m sorry.” he apologizes. “sorry for not showing you how much i love you, because trust me, i love you more than life itself, more than anything. sorry for being an asshole, and sorry for not putting you and our relationship first.” he coos.
“i’m sorry for yelling.” i apologize. “it’s okay.” he softly laughs. “i promise i’ll be better.” he states. “me too.” i nod. “i love you.” he smiles. “i love you.” i smile back. “i’ll cancel my plans for the next week, just for me to make up for lost time. almost lost the most important thing to me.” he smiles.
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#eddie munson#x reader#eddie munson angst#angst#i lowkey hate it#based off of taylor swift#he’s an asshole#he’s an idiot#i’m so tired#i’m sad#angst than comfort#you’re losing me
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🥺🥺 I’ve been going to the gym during the day this autumn instead of the morning. Today went during the morning like I used to, and the cleaner greeted me and said that he thought I had quit bc hadn’t seen me around, and if everything’s good and that made my day
#i go through life always thinking I affect nothing & no one so things like these baffle me but in a very good way#like I am a human person alongside other ppl after all#i feel lowkey bad tho bc I could’ve been leas awkward and say ’’thanks’’ etc. but I wasn’t expecting to be talking to anyone#also he spoke english so the language barrier bc sure I know english like pretty alright but talking in it is different#but anyways; i love my gym and if I ever move I’m going to be honestly sad about having to switch (bc currently it seems very chill place &#don’t get that gym anxiety anymore bc I’ve been going there for like a year)#november 2023#2023
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made this thing a while ago and only now am I realising that the positioning of the photos makes it seem like Ichigo is positively beaming at Grimmjow, talking abt some shit he likes, and Grimmjow is acting all tough, and annoyed with him, but it’s actually because his brain is actively melting inside his skull.
#grimmichi#Ichigo is oblivious as always#lowkey his most attractive shot in the manga and he has no idea he’s looking majestic#wouldn’t fault anyone for falling to their knees begging him for a single chance cause I’m right beside them on the ground#I know ppl from Ichigo’s uni be praying on Grimmjow’s downfall#Grimmjow is just so done with himself for finding this Shinigami Hollow whatever bullshit attractive#let me tell you: he hasn’t understood a single word that came out of Ichigo’s mouth for the past 30 minutes#Ichigo notices Grimmjow’s look and thinks he’s boring/pissing him off and shuts up#all while looking like a sad wet cat#Grimmjow trying to figure out how to get him to talk again while having 28 consecutive meltdowns in a second#but yeah#I don’t play about grimmichi
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actually I lied put your clothes back on I’m gonna talk about how gojo satoru heavily haunts the jjk narrative despite being alive for most of it and how his humanity (as set up by the story) actually died when geto defected and left him as more an empty symbol than a sorcerer
#he makes me crazy him and geto and toji are the lynchpin for change in the story#and I actually love how he showed up post getting sealed it makes sooo much sense#just sad if you like him as a person/character lol#me when I’m lowkey a gege glazer#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#dee rambles
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i genuinely think max and ian bad boycrushes on each other when they were really close in 2016/2017. max tries so hard to make ian laugh and ian barely tries and gets max hollering over stupid shit. the “hey that’s pretty good” always gets a kick from max and i swear ian only says it for him to laugh at it. whenever they do a video in each others presence they’re always smiling and giggling. in the pokémon go vids they also can’t get enough of each other. just the way they roughhouse and tease each other is just so…. Fruity. they absolutely loved eachother to death during that era and i miss it 😢😢😢
#it’s kinda sad when u see how ian is around max and chad compared to back then :(#ik he’s changed but i lowkey feel like he lost his soul a little 😭😭#like he’s not even rowdy or silly anymore he’s kinda just hallow :(#Yeah i’m being gay and freaky about some guy who fell off what about it#ramble#ian#max#maxian#You can literally see when maxs face lights up with joy when he looks at ian#ditto for ian too#THEY WERE SO COMFORTABLE AROUND EACHOTHER IN GAY WAY GRAHHHHHHHHH
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Quick noah fanart :))
Other versions under the cut
#total drama#noah total drama#total drama island#total drama noah#noah td#tdi noah#noah tdi#tdwt noah#the last one is eels scars from the one promo (??) (deleted??) scene after Noah’s elimination#I’m sad so my favorite character also has to be sad 🤷♀️#but I’m actually lowkey proud of this..probably one of my best works lol#td noah#tdi
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EP14 OF LOVELY RUNNER!!
I absolutely love how the last time turn ended- didn’t expect it at all and definitely hit me in the feels. Bc now that we’re back in present I was honestly getting sooo sad for Sol and how she went through all these different paths just to end up with nothing. But now Sunjae is calling her trying to be in the movie and it is the cutest thing !! Anywhos I wonder if he’ll fully remember every path that’s happened… I’m just happy the sad vibes didn’t last long
#purposefully not putting what happened bc suha sometimes reads these lololol#lovely runner#also the detectives son/now detective guy looks lowkey like IN from skz??#just lowkey tho#okay so it did still swing towards sad again but it’s a good balance#just in my feels ig bc I’m reealllyyy feeling sol’s sadness of having to let him go
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